school and other stuff...

it has been a rather hectic past two weeks, what with meeting up with international students and getting into the momentum of starting school all over again after that wonderful 3 month break. oh well, what to do? once again thrown into the motion of things- planning timetable, choosing modules, musing over what has gone and getting over it, being stressed over science mods ( foundations of engineering and transportation in singapore =x) + queuing at the co-op to buy textbooks ( of which two cost 80 bucks?! ) + meeting new people ( in classes and in vcf) and generally just being forced into the whole 'system' of business and hustle. now i know how people suffer from burn-out. haa. personally, i think it's not really the studying per say, but more of the stress generated by trying to fit in; or rather catch up with the rest of the crowd- trying to be first in queue to buy books , trying to borrow that reference book before others get it so that one will have a so-called 'advantage', trying to find the best combination of modules to take to get the optimum CAP to do honours, RANKING! , the bell curve where every tries to squeeze into the top part of it. argh! all these are sufficiently enought to drain one for the rest of the semester, trust me. the queue at the co-op says it all. haa~

anyways, i've been trying to adjust a fair bit as well- with my 5 day school week.arghhhhh! it's perhaps poor timetable planning on my part; but then again, I really wanna take my medical sw mod, and am insistent on finishing up my required modules for attachment by this sem, so , i guess there's not much choice. hopefully it'll make me more dilligent in doing my readings and stuff. hopefully. =P

was pretty stressed last week over something in cf, which pretty much attributed to my lousy mood ( sorry pechies! =P) can't really talk much about it here, cause it's pretty sensitive . moreover, what i may say might be too one-sided and egoistical and really not very edifying; so i shall not elaborate. was bascically just frustrated. sadly, i haven't really been able to talk about this issue with the rest of the comm, much less my head. still a little peeved by what happened, but will probably get talking to him soon cause i must admit, i am being rather petty and immature about it by sort of avoiding him-esp since we are all in cf and in the body of Christ. yea, anyway, talking about cf, glad that quite a number of freshies came over for welcome tea despite the fact that it was a lecture week. it's really encouraging to see so many like-minded people on campus. =)

was rather happy yesterday! i am finally able to do more for music min!! yoohoo! been wanting to do it for a while, just waiting for an opportunity; and I was glad that God really answered my prayers and opened a door for me. Praise the Lord! am excited about the changes with the ministry and all.. think it's pretty cool. now we'll have people in charge of devotion and stuff in the ministry as well. it's great to see how even the music ministry can help its members to grow spiritually in the Lord.

hmm..everyone's been raving over FOP and i figured i must simply join in! haa~ it was great! couldn't really grasp the concept of 'being in heaven' when people worship the Lord together till last sat night. It was surreal. everyone was lifting up their hands, singing on the top of their voices praisng Him. Loved hillsongs! somehow their songs are more catchy ( or perhaps i'm still not accustomed to rock ..=P hee) it was alright though. we are afterall all praising the Lord the same. was glad that the sermon by colin dye challenged me to really seek a 'revalation' from God and ask HIm what he really wanted me to do for HIm. it was the reason why i offered to open my house to the vietnamese on national day; and I don;t regret it a bit! it was truly rewarding to really know that you made a difference and you built bonds with them. glad to see them so happy. i guess the stress was sort of worth it. =)

right now, still have a few things left on my mind; and well, pray that I will continue to trust and depend on Him.

trust implicity.

You rescued me, and picked me up
A living hope, of grace revealed
A life transformed, in righteousness
Oh Lord, you have rescued me.

Forgiving me, you healed my heart
And set me free from sin and death
You brought me life
You made me whole
Oh Lord You have rescued me

And you knew me,
before I knew you
And you knew me for all time
A new creation, in your image, O Lord,
You rescued me, You rescued me.

trivia! which will cool faster: a small block of tofu or a big one? haa~ the interesting stuff i learn at engin class.

be curious: curiosity doesn't kill ( you are not a cat) =P

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hee..my song i composed today!!! heee..any suggestions for a title? haa.

was at home the other day, thinking about the memories
that i'd been keeping at bay
close to crying, couldn't help tearing
cause i thought all the good times i ever had were surely gone
I thought of the moments, the words you said, the games we played
The surreal moments, the gifts exchanged
The dinners
It seemed right at that time

Many times I'd try to let it go
But the memories stayed fast
Was it ever going to come to past
I wondered

Chorus
Then when I was down and out
His still small voice came booming loud
Reaching to me
He said that His love was unchanging
And that He would carry me

Bridge
Why so downcast in my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
He said, " Put your hope in me,
And I will pull you through"

So I wanna thank you Father,
for showing me the wonder
of your amazing love and mercy
Though I still fall down sometimes
I know that I can trust in You
Trust in You alone

And I know the best times are found in You.

Trivia!

Question of the day: What the the people who study the depletion of the ozone layer called?

Answer : ( or so i think): Aeronomy lab scientists! or metereologists!

haa~ only those who were in del's car get this..but anyways, just something interesting for you all to know! we're thinking of getting a list of trivia to do while waiting for fop to start on sat, think this very much kicks off the whole thing! haaaaa~

wrote a song today..mainly about how He brought me through a really tough situation ( getting over *ahem*) and it probably seems a little childish. will post it anyway so i'll be able to keep it for future use. ( if any =P ) so cool..think i'm really inspired by juwita suwito! love her songs and lyrics!

it's been a busy few weeks and week ahead..hopefully i won't lose steam by the time school starts next mon =x bleargh.. sianz.. anyone having a 5 day week too? *sobs* i guess He has a purpose for that..probably to get me to study consistantly! ya..that must be it! better pull up my CAP otherwise i won't be able to stay for honours = P

been praying for direction for a while now..and somehow i feel that God's directing me to do stuff related to music ..not sure exactly what..but it definitely feels good to know that i actually do have a passion for something..haa~ think playing the keys alone on sun sort of triggered that thought. but i surely want to hear more from Him ..i guess for now i'll let the spirit lead. =)

excited for FOP on sat!! can't wait..it'll be the first time i'll be going for it.. ( a little pathetic eh? ) well...better llate than never i guess! yay!! hope all in peche will be able to make it then..it'll be fun =)

i'll end off with Juwita Suwito's " You in Me"..really like the lyrics..meaningful.

Everytime I look into your eyes
There's a pleasant surprise awaiting me and amazing me
Somehow I realise I'm so tired of the lies they keep telling me
Telling me I should look down inside in myself to find something greater
When I know I can look at the bright side and find the creator