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no one bothered. = ( down.

just me I hope.

tomorrow will be a better day.

bring me back to You

I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth —Genesis 9:13
It is the will of God that human beings should get into a right-standing relationship with Him, and His covenants are designed for this purpose. Why doesn’t God save me? He has accomplished and provided for my salvation, but I have not yet entered into a relationship with Him. Why doesn’t God do everything we ask? He has done it. The point is— will I step into that covenant relationship? All the great blessings of God are finished and complete, but they are not mine until I enter into a relationship with Him on the basis of His covenant.
Waiting for God to act is fleshly unbelief. It means that I have no faith in Him. I wait for Him to do something in me so I may trust in that. But God won’t do it, because that is not the basis of the God-and-man relationship. Man must go beyond the physical body and feelings in his covenant with God, just as God goes beyond Himself in reaching out with His covenant to man. It is a question of faith in God--a very rare thing. We only have faith in our feelings. I don’t believe God until He puts something tangible in my hand, so that I know I have it. Then I say, "Now I believe." There is no faith exhibited in that. God says, "Look to Me, and be saved . . ." ( Isaiah 45:22 ).
When I have really transacted business with God on the basis of His covenant, letting everything else go, there is no sense of personal achievement— no human ingredient in it at all. Instead, there is a complete overwhelming sense of being brought into union with God, and my life is transformed and radiates peace and joy.

Taken from My utmost to the highest by Oswald chambers ( dec 5)

Lord, help me to surrender all that i am, all that i have to You- for without You I am truely nothing.

Read Haggai today...and it talked about how; without God's blessings, the people weren't able to accomplish anything completely and in full. ( their crops were bad, they didn't have enought to eat and wear) really caused me to think about how my walk with Him has been; how I have been living my life these 2 weeks. Realised I have been like the people who couldn't really accomplish anything at all because they have concentrated on building their own houses and not the temple of God. How apt. Must confess I haven't been doing my qt very consistently after my exams ( and the lack of a daily bread as qt material really is a lame excuse). haven't been able to focus on Him; have been ultra distracted these few days by ' things of old', the planning for the camp and just really bumming around and feeling sorry for myself.

How right amd true it is when Pastor B reminded us that a person who is usually spiritually dry is one who hasn't been fed spiritual food from His word. Used to listen to it , but never really believing it for myself, but well, guess He's teaching me the importance of His word.

Pastor B's last sermon on sunday.. the 1 thing...passion and purity. My life has been sorely lacking these two things. Really want to be passionate for God once again; in my actions; in ministry; in my quiet time. I want to have a clean heart, and not be consumed by my desires.

Lord, help me love you and know you more .

Lord I need to see Your face

I need to know Your heart, more than ever

Lord I long to hear Your voice

I need to know Your way, for a time like this Lord